2024-04-30

العرض مستمر..

 مافيش أطفال من سنك.. عايز تلعب؟ اخترع أطفال بخيالك. اعمل عالم كامل. العب كتير مع نفسك لحد ما تكتشف إنك ما بتعرفش تلعب غير معاها.

الناس اللي المفروض تقوم بدورها في حياتك ما بتعملوش. املا مكانهم بسرعة. العب كل الألعاب. الأماكن الفاضية بتكتر. كل ما مكان يفضى تقطع من نفسك حتة، ترقع اللوحة، تسيب المكان فاضي؟ ولا تاخد حتة من كل حتة تملى بيها المكان دا؟ مكان واضح فاضي بيتسرسب لك منه الألم واضح وصارخ زي ماية ساقعة على عصب الأسنان.. ولا إحساس بعدم الشبع في كل الأماكن الباقية؟ الاختيار ليك. الاختيار فعلاً ليك؟

بتملى كل الأماكن. بتلعب كل الألعاب. حياتك كلها شبه مسرحية الطفولة انت المؤلف والمخرج وكل الممثلين والجمهور. العرض مستمر وانت مرهق أوي بس ما ينفعش تقف.. لأن العرض مستمر، وانت كل حاجة، المسرح والمسرحية والمتفرجين، ومحدش هيملى مكانك الفاضي. 

2024-04-22

I'm good!

 I can read your mind

She's having the time of her life

There in her glittering prime

The lights refract sequined stars off her silhouette every night

I can show you lies (one, two, three)

'Cause I'm a real tough kid, I can handle my shit

They said, baby, gotta fake it 'til you make it and I did

Lights, camera, bitch smile, even when you wanna die

He said he'd love me all his life

But that life was too short

Breaking down, I hit the floor

All the pieces of me shattered as the crowd was chanting, "More"

I was grinning like I'm winning, I was hitting my marks

'Cause I can do it with a broken heart (one, two, three)

I'm so depressed, I act like it's my birthday every day

I'm so obsessed with him but he avoids me like the plague

I cry a lot but I am so productive, it's an art

You know you're good when you can even do it

With a broken heart

I can hold my breath

I've doing it since he left

I keep finding his things in drawers

Crucial evidence I didn't imagine the whole thing

I'm sure I can pass this test (one, two, thee)

'Cause I'm a real tough kid, I can handle my shit

They said, baby, gotta fake it 'til you make it and I did

Lights, camera, bitch smile, in stilettos for miles

He said he'd love me for all time

But that time was quite short

Breaking down, I hit the floor

All the pieces of me shattered as the crowd was chanting, "More"

I was grinning like I'm winning, I was hitting my marks

'Cause I can do it with a broken heart (one, two, three)

I'm so depressed, I act like it's my birthday every day

I'm so obsessed with him but he avoids me like the plague (he avoids me)

I cry a lot but I am so productive, it's an art

You know you're good when you can even do it

With a broken heart

You know you're good when you can even do it

With a broken heart

You know you're good, I'm good

'Cause I'm miserable

And no one even knows

Try to come for my job



- Taylor Swift